I had plans yesterday.  They were squashed.  And so those plans made their way to today.  Squashed again. A surprise sick kid. And yet another visit from the stomach bug for what feels like nine times the 99th time this season.  But what really surprised me was this. I didn’t freak out in typical fashion. Because God has been slowly kneading and speaking something over my heart lately. And it’s this… "My plans are not always your plans. And that’s OK. That’s ... VIEW POST

I tend to get insistently impatient to unwrap the mysteries of my future. And boy would it be divine if God would hand me a daily to-do list, stat, so I could run full speed and check off all the right tasks moving me quicker to the carrot of purpose dangling at the completion of the mission. Where the sweet fruit of labor is finally found and the harvest ripe for reaping.  Why wait? Let’s get to it! Right? To the good stuff. Not to mention, the slow and steady of sloth-ish baby steps ... VIEW POST

A surprise disappointment spontaneously surfaced this week. And did I immediately take it to God? The one who’s always right there, cares most, listens best, and knows everything about everything. Including the best way to handle it, including the perfect encouragement to rip me out of my dark ditch of discontentment. Did I? Nope. Sure didn’t. Not off the bat anyway.  Do you tend to do this too? Run to your bestie, hubby, or any living soul available for your rant? Just someone ... VIEW POST

Do you need answers? Help with what to do? Wishing, hoping, praying God would clearly voice specific insight and direction concerning something that's been swirling around in and suffocating your thoughts?  I get it. I desperately want to hear from God. Yet, countless colliding calls compete for my attention, time, and energy. So much and so many that they can’t possibly all be from him. To make matters murkier, I’m struggling to be still enough to discern and learn the difference. ... VIEW POST

My heart is broken. For the broken. Specifically the shattered souls who don’t realize how desperately they need Jesus. Because I’ve been them before. And the darkness is ridiculously deep. Empty. Lonely. Numbing. And though I'm confident in our need for the Savior, I tend to slip back into pits and forget its vast depth at times.  You’ve been there, haven’t you? Maybe even now. In a state of dim. Longing, pining for more. More love. More purpose, fulfillment, contentment. Richer ... VIEW POST

Tied up in tangled knots. That’s the state of my heart these days. I wake to it day after day. Stare at the mess again and again. With no notice of the beginning or end, or even a loose loop to pull out, cut free, and unravel the scrambled confusion. Do you ever feel off? Stuffed with a soul that you can’t distinguish why it seems off-beat, how it happened, when it started, where things got side-tracked, and how in the world you can possibly iron out the craze back to smooth? At stuck ... VIEW POST